Step Down

I just realized something going wrong last night
then whole of my plan ruined and I am not alright
I cried silence to beat my sore of the truth
but I couldn't hold it anymore, then nothing I could do.

Yes, I will take the step forward today
release all the weight that hanged on my back then walk away
everything in their place, just like when I am nothing
I wouldn't regret for tears to be taken away by my cunning.

I won't say "I'm sorry"
no one should be blamed for this pain inside of me
I am not need explanation of this passion
you just watch my feet when I take a motion.

Yes everything won't be the same after this time
the line of my pain has been so vague and pass it is a crime
nothing could be a reason to be hurt lately
then this matter break my confidence deeply.

It was not funny anymore
yes, I try to make it comfortable like before,
the plan of life is only a memory
no answer for such a sick moment of my story.

I won't step down to take the blame
even though you put your power in my second name
it was ridiculous to know the truth on my life that way
it was so wrong when this heart dropped to the ground when you dare to say.

I won't stop doing the way I did last night
it was my pain who stabbed me to be lost without light
you didn't know what I felt when it happened
it was more than a painful time that I should take in a moment.

You were not there when I cried, were you?
then stop asking me to take the same place like you do
it isn't same at all even though it looked similar
you didn't know what I faced yesterday, stop judging me as a liar.

When I was sleep my tear kept coming out
but I closed my mouth to save the sound of my blood
you didn't know what I should face for the stupidity of my friend
they didn't understand me like you do when this feeling comes to its end.

Toy’s Love

I am jumping around to make you happy
I give you my best shot everyday so you won’t leave me,
and the funny thing of my stupid behavior is that makes you missing it
then when I bored being stupid, you won’t able to break my magic.

I admit that I am your doll
playing around and I give you my all,
maybe you have put your spell on my mind
so that I cannot ignore your sexy voice nor look behind.

I admit that I love you,
but if I get bored with you, I won’t doubt to see the truth
you always think I won’t survive without you beside me
then look the fact if I’m done with you, you are the one who will be lonely.

Maybe that’s true if I am your doll
but if I am lazy to be with you then I’ll break the wall,
you never know that I get your off bottom in my hand
and if you crazily hurt my heart, I won’t doubt to turn you off, man.

Maybe it’s true if sometimes I miss you
but the weird thing that you will call me first like you usually do,
you always say that I won’t be ok without you around
see the truth, I am the one who can fix your heart when you get drown.

Yes, I am your doll baby
but you never know how deep my magic get into you, easily
and today I just press your bottom and make you to be my robot
then you won’t able to walk away from my spot.

If you ignore me, and then I’ll turn you off
it is easy come and easy go, that’s the sound of our love
so now let’s enjoy it like we usually do
because I’m your doll but I will be your baby boo.

Traumatic

I am standing out side of paranoid world
and nothing give me worth word,
then I get crushed by so many questions to stay
when I try to run away and keep it that way.

I get traumatic
my heart burned by loneliness of apathetic,
I have no answer for this pain inside
and I already tired to bide.

I want to run away from this situation
I cannot take it to my emotion
but then I get traumatic again
it grows with the shadow of the rain.

How it could be this painful today
nothing can change its way
but this trauma inside of my body
has been my answer of this blur rhapsody.

I want to keep it that way of my life against this madness
and then I breathe with my scary cursed, it's pointless
I am fatigue to face other reason, I get traumatic
nobody will be save here tonight, then I am panic.

I beg to raise the truth of feeling
but this position hold this lip dying,
and I am such a pathetic
when nothing can give answer of it, I get traumatic.

I scream to ask for help and no one come to me
I just realized how alone I can be
when I be here with this crowded people but no one hear
I can smell the trauma inside of me, it's too late to feel this fear.

Fury

Maybe I’ve taken wrong way to go
but I just too arrogant to know,
I don’t want to look behind nor step back
I can’t fool myself and trying to understand the fact.

Maybe I’ve said something wrong to stop
but just so you see I didn’t shut up shop
and I don’t want to apologize for what I achieve
because what I’ve done is what I believe.

Maybe I am wrong about you
but I don’t care about what you do
all that I know I don’t need to hear what you say
so you better cut stick and get decay.

Maybe I’ve hurt you so bad
and had turn your beautiful life into so sad,
I am sorry, but you had make me mad
so now, what can I add?

Maybe I’ve reach the highest fury
and it just little bit too late to say you are sorry
but what should I do, nothing can change you
I just enjoy this pain then see what you can do.

Defenseless

I can't get this anymore
it is make me so bore,
I let it flow away
and I can take the other way.

I'll let this matter defeat me
I don't want to fight against my stupidity
because I know I'll be okay if it should be like this
and it will as sweet as my first kiss.

I'll let this moment gone
I am not too afraid if I should be alone
and I know that I'll be fine
because it is too hard to cross the line.

I'll forget everything that makes me dizzy
I won't push my self and get crazy
I can see this is not really too bad
even sometimes make me so sad.

I know I missed it
I could see I've been defeated
but I knew I won't regret it
I've given what I need.

I know it was look terrible
and when I saw it, my body was tremble
but I think I've done my best
and now it depends on God does the rest.

Please to be Happy

I am standing here with you my friend
even I can’t always hold you till the end,
you have no worry cause you won’t stay alone
and even when your heart disappear, my love never gone.

I am holding your heart tenderly
and when you broke it up, I won’t let you empty
just stand up with me here
we will stay together to kick your fear.

Please don’t be so sad
because seeing you cry, it hurts me so bad
please find the other reason to survive
and then happily continuous your live.

Please to be happy
I’m your friend, trust me
please don’t let them break you down again
but if that happened, I’ll be with you to erase your pain.

I will stay with you
face this cruel reality, I’ll do
and I beg you just one thing to do for me
please always have a good reason to be happy.

Your Memory

It is your dark memory
you never know about my worry
you always pretending it was me
but we both knows it just your stupidity.

It is your dark life
and you said I’ve stabbed a knife
you always think I should take a responsibility
but please understand this is not about me.

You have lost your mind
and I’m not quite blind to face this kind
I don’t want to be your doll anymore
it is enough to suck your sore.

You have lost your health
and I don’t want to give you my wealth,
you can’t fool me anymore like before
it is enough to be the part of your show of bore.

It is just about your brutality
I don’t want to be blinded by stupid love of this reality
and now I will run away from your memory
because I’m not quite crazy to stay lonely with you baby.